So life is seriously moving fast. A little too fast. But I think this is the time in life where stuff is supposed to be moving fast and you have to keep remembering who you are, where you came from, and where you are going.
I had an interview with the heads of a major human services organization in Richmond, one of my favorite cities. What’s crazy is I can’t really say what the internship is. I’m really not supposed to let anyone know because of safety issues. How badass is that!? But it is perfect for my major.
A summer in the city I love, doing the work that I hope to make my career someday, with some really great friends and one of my bestfriends, Jo Beth. Not everything is set in stone yet but I personally think that is the setting for one of the most epic summers ever!
I am starting to loose my adolescent self that used to change her mind every month on what she wanted to do in life, let alone a career. He style would change with every season along with the decision of her major and the only worry was grades and finding the next adventure.
I still have a whole bunch of my free spirit in me, Don’t worry. But the whole logical side of life is starting to bite me in the ass. I’m at a good mix right now. Being a twentysomething is great and comes with many perks but I am growing up. it sucks. One day I am sure I will like it but for now I still think it sucks. The end.
What life is showing me right now:
- We’re sort of all insecure wrecks, aren’t we? The funny thing about me is that I want everyone to like me regardless if I actually like them back. It’s sick! I can seriously hate someone’s guts but I will freak out if they hate me back. Sadly, this hasn’t improved. But what I have learned is who my real friends are. The ones you call family, yah, I have a few of those and they are some of the absolute best people on earth. And when I fall they know how to pick me up. They always know.
- I collect memories like a hoarder. Everything means something. Everything has the potential to be monumental because that’s what I was taught. The mundane can become magic. Just like that. I hope it stays that way.
- I’m tired of things improving incrementally through experience. I just want to achieve a symbolic success and then ride off into the sunset feeling like a million bucks while singing Fun’s “Some Nights.” The problem, though, is that sunset turns into night, and then the next day is just a regular day again
Life seems to be a movie that has struck a perfect balance between humor and drama, but it is starting to feel more like a horror film at times. The takeaway message should eventually be that growing older is difficult. Life can change overnight. One day it can look a certain way and the next, everything will be different.