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So life is seriously moving fast. A little too fast. But I think this is the time in life where stuff is supposed to be moving fast and you have to keep remembering who you are, where you came from, and where you are going.

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I had an interview with the heads of a major human services organization in Richmond, one of my favorite cities. What’s crazy is I can’t really say what the internship is. I’m really not supposed to let anyone know because of safety issues. How badass is that!? But it is perfect for my major.

A summer in the city I love, doing the work that I hope to make my career someday, with some really great friends and one of my bestfriends, Jo Beth. Not everything is set in stone yet but I personally think that is the setting for one of the most epic summers ever!

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I am starting to loose my adolescent self that used to change her mind every month on what she wanted to do in life, let alone a career. He style would change with every season along with the decision of her major and the only worry was grades and finding the next adventure.

I still have a whole bunch of my free spirit in me, Don’t worry. But the whole logical side of life is starting to bite me in the ass. I’m at a good mix right now. Being a twentysomething is great and comes with many perks but I am growing up. it sucks. One day I am sure I will like it but for now I still think it sucks. The end.

What life is showing me right now:

• We’re sort of all insecure wrecks, aren’t we? The funny thing about me is that I want everyone to like me regardless if I actually like them back. It’s sick! I can seriously hate someone’s guts but I will freak out if they hate me back. Sadly, this hasn’t improved. But what I have learned is who my real friends are. The ones you call family, yah, I have a few of those and they are some of the absolute best people on earth. And when I fall they know how to pick me up. They always know.
• I collect memories like a hoarder. Everything means something. Everything has the potential to be monumental because that’s what I was taught. The mundane can become magic. Just like that. I hope it stays that way.
• I’m tired of things improving incrementally through experience. I just want to achieve a symbolic success and then ride off into the sunset feeling like a million bucks while singing Fun’s “Some Nights.” The problem, though, is that sunset turns into night, and then the next day is just a regular day again

Life seems to be a movie that has struck a perfect balance between humor and drama, but it is starting to feel more like a horror film at times. The takeaway message should eventually be that growing older is difficult. Life can change overnight. One day it can look a certain way and the next, everything will be different.

Dear Dakota,

Congratulations!

You have been selected to participate in the Disney College Program at the Walt Disney World® Resort! This is a valuable résumé-enhancing experience for all students, and we are proud to offer this opportunity to you.

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So I have been super busy with school lately. Last week was pretty much the worst ever with midterms and projects and I haven’t been able to post this until now. But I would juat like to say that I did pretty well on all my assignments. Yay!

I am definately stoked to be living in ORLANDO next semester as a intern of the Disney College Program!! My job will be working photopass so I will be getting paid to take pictures…in Disney World. That’s pretty much paradise.

 I cannot wait to meet so many other students representing almost every university in the nation and thankfully, this will not set me back at all in my education since my school has a huge online program and I will be taking my normal 18 credits spread out between intensives. The housing apartments are super nice and I am told that the parties are some of the craziest!

You get to meet with many of the business leaders of The Disney Company which is excellent for networking. They also provide many career meet and greets with other big companies and organizations. No matter what your major, Disney tries to tie the experience together somehow with your future endevors. It’s so hard these days to find a paying internship so this is a wonderful opportunity and I am very stoked for August!

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I love people. My career is to eventually help all types of them. I have always been a social bug so when I try so hard to really commit to people and friendships, I expect them to commit as well. We pick and choose who we want in life. It sounds horrible, I know, but it’s reality.

I am sick and tired of being walked on. I do so much for certian “friends” who we say will be in each other’s weddings, make coffee dates and lunches, plan future trips together and still has two pairs of my earrings, a belt, and two tops! AGH!

I’m so fucking over being nice. THIS is why I love being friends with guys. They are very chill and sincere for the most part and all my favorites would do anything for me. Even more, THIS is why I hang out with gay guys. (Love you Will. Mwah!) I swear Gays are some of the nicest guys you will ever meet. I can honestly say that I’ve never met a predominately asshole of a gay. (No pun intended.)

Girls suck. Ok sorry, MOST girls suck. I must admit that I have some very good girlfriends these days and I am very content. But one bad fish can spoil the whole pond. Swear to God we were born to kill and break down each other’s happiness and self-worth that the good Lord gave us. Don’t get me wrong, yes, I will admit that I used to be one of these “mean girls.” But in the end, we move on from high school and try to only remember the best. So why, at my christian university, am I being treated like shit from my own species. Girls are evil, but Christian girls are Satan’s BFF.

It’s ok. “Someday I’ll be living in a big old city and all you’re ever gonna be is mean.”

I need coffee, a drink, and my bestfriend to come visit this weekend. =[